Crystal

Hey! One whole year since I met you and 6 months since I saw or spoke to you. I'm not sure what to say or where to even start, but I felt the urge to reach out so I am. I want you to know I thank you more than you'll ever know for just being you. You changed my life in such a short amount of time and inspired me in ways I didn't even know possible. You made me see things in myself I didn't know were there. Thank you for opening my eyes to a whole new world but most importantly, thank you for loving me and giving me the opportunity to experience what that feels like. Even though short-lived I will never forget it and I will not settle for less. Taking a break from you wasn't what I wanted to do, but I know it had to be done. Now I see that it cost me you. I'm trying to not look at it negatively though. Sometimes we're only meant to be in someone's life for a reason or a season. Sometimes our timing is just off. Life's really hard already on its own, but when surrounded by the wrong people, it's miserable. I've recognized this and I'm actively making the necessary changes to get to where I want to be. It's tough, I'm not going to downplay that. It's probably the hardest thing ever. But I know once I get on the other side of this, it's going to all be so worth it. I took a break from listening to your podcast to help clear my mind. I listened recently. I was so nervous because I didn't know if it would send me down a bad path, but I actually feel good. I'm in a good place mentally and Im at peace with our relationship. My feelings for you haven't and won't ever change, I miss you like crazy and still think about you daily but I accept it for what it is and what it isn't. I love you and hope things are going well for you. I know you're going to excel at anything you do. I hope you find true love and happiness and I hope when you think of me it makes you smile. I know I do when thoughts of you occur. My door is always open if you ever need a friend or somebody to talk to you. I love you and I want nothing but happiness for you! Love, Crystal